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I'm not sure about what to do with all the money I have now. I've just realized that I feel lonelier than ever. I've just realized that here in Lisbon I almost have no friends and that maybe I should try to socialize more...but then again I find most of the people not interesting at all. I don't know, I listen to myself and sometimes it's just like listening to a complaining teenager. I don't even find the right words to express myself.

anyways, just to move, to see other things, to travel around the world, I'm starting to plan a trip to Japan, I think it would be interesting and exciting, and I've always been fascinated about Japan...I'm thinking about going there on Christmas time, that could be nice... since I'm rich now I don't even have to worry about how much the ticket will cost as I used to...

LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL i guess

Rich Alice

I have not been sober enough to write a post here for the past week. I have been celebrating my win with lots of parties, booze and good food.

SO....... OVERNIGHT.... I HAVE BECOME A RICH ALICE WITH A FORTUNE OF 1 MILLION DOLLAR!!!!!!

Nobody will believe this and think it is probably Alice going mad with her hallucination... I couldn't believe it too. For the whole evening, I was double checking each number on my lottery ticket with the results on the papers. I must have checked more than 100 times..... For now, my mind is just wild with ideas to use this money!!!

Should I?

TRAVEL AROUND THE WORLD

BUY A NEW HOUSE WITH A NICE GARDEN

A MERCEDES-BENZ SL-Maxx

HIRE A PERSONAL COOK AND A MASSEUR AND A PERSONAL TRAINER

BUILD A IN-HOUSE SPA AND JACUZZI

BUY A NEW COMPUTER (my pc died and am converting to mac user)

BUY A PONY

PLASTIC SURGERY TO FIX MY SCARS

IMPORT THE FINEST WINE FROM FRANCE

........... THE LIST goes on

So how did it happen? If you have read my earlier post, I have recently picked up a new hobby called 'Running'. I ran religiously every morning starting from my house. The more I run, the longer each run last. On this particular morning, I did a half marathon, ending right in front of a lottery booth. The lady at the counter gave me a warm welcoming smile. I wondered if she had realized that I just ran 21 km and her smile was meant to be a encouraging trophy.

To reward myself, I bought a lottery ticket. I didn't think I would be lucky enough to strike one. The purchase was just meant to commemorate my first ever half marathon in my entire life. I had only intended to write "MY FIRST 21 KM RUN" on the back of the ticket and slot it into my diary.

LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL WITH A MILLION DOLLAR!!!!!

Love

ALICE

Wishing upon the stars

It has been tough during the past 3 days since i decided to stop painting my nails. I think it is addictive but I am determined to stop all these nonsense. And I am tired of being sick. And perhaps that is the reason why I miss Texas so much. In Texas, I can take a drive to some small towns and relax. Maybe I was younger then too, it seemed that life is more lived and freed.

Anyway, I have not been feeling so well the past 2 weeks. As I mentioned before, my tongue is super sensitive and I am lethargic most of the time. I miss the younger Alice 15 years ago. I really did have much more energy then. I can't help but to ponder about life. Why in the first place, are the human beings on earth? Is it fair when we are all born to live and struggle and die? This might appear to be a stupid, self indulgent question... but come on, can anyone on earth give a good answer to it? Talking about human rights..... no one on earth, reading this, have had a say on whether they want to become a human or not. If I had a choice, I probably won't.

Since I am already in this world, I know it will be terrible if i continue to dwell on this. My freedom is already taken away. I don't have control over when I want in or out of this world, or even to be present in the first place. So I have decided that I will make myself as happy and fulfilled as possible. I want to enjoy life to the fullest while I am here.

Today, I want to start running. Though I have never been good in sports, but I figure that by running, I can improve my health and motivation in life. I watched the movie, "Forrest Gump"...Tom Hanks' run was inspirational. I don't know how far I can run, but I will update in this blog soon.

I'm feeling really like an old woman lately. I'm still young, I'd like to think, but this month of september I've been feeling aughful, as if I was 89 years old. I've started to have strange syntoms, I don't know if it might come from the european food, the water, the air...but because i don't feel well i'm always in a bad mood and I don't even feel like writting on this blog anymore. besides that in lisbon the weather is become very melancholic recently (or maybe it's just me the melancholic one)and I never thought I'd say this but: 1, I miss texas sometimes, and 2, I don't want to paint my nails anymore, who cares.
I have some kind of hypersensitivity in my mouth and my tongue barely touching my teeth or the food it hurts. my neck hurts and I feel tired all the time...I spend so much time by myself that I'm becoming obsesive and start feeling sympathy...I guess i'm not very good making friends or it's just that I don't find anybody interesting..............................................silence...............i wanted to listen to the silence for some seconds but it's impossible, my neighbour is playing some kind of african music very loud and it's impossible to listen to anything else.....i guess I'll just go for a walk under the rain to see if I my mood changes, because writting obviously hasn't worked.

Invention of the Sitting Bowl

Here is a interesting read on Toilets. Apparently, it seems that we are giving ourselves health problem with invention that are supposed to improve our living conditions. Few years back, I was in Thailand and came across a squatting toilet bowl. I was having great difficulty in figuring out how I should position myself. And I have taken for granted to assume that one should be sitting and not squatting while we do it, till I read this article. Actually, dogs have given us a big hint about the healthy way... I haven't seen any dogs sitting while doing their business.

Article link:

http://naturesplatform.com/health_benefits.html#rb