These 97 pages

I read it 4 times, over and over, since Wednesday. I felt the impulse to re-read it over and over again, because i suspect I am missing something from it. It is strange how i get so inquisitive over this book since I am not really into theatre or any form of performances... Those few performances I went to were really either out of obligation or boredom.

The first time, I was reading it in my balcony overlooking the busy streets (my new apartment which I bought from my winnings)

The second time, I was reading it in the toilet.

Third time, I read at the internet cafe down the street ..I have my wireless internet, of course, but it is nice to hope by an internet cafe sometimes.... people watching just to feel normal again.

The Fourth, today. I was reading it with an ice-cream in my right hand, standing next to a ice-cream kiosk along the busy main road... this time, people are watching me, puzzled to see someone standing and reading amongst loads of human traffic.

I feel impulse to read it for the fifth time tomorrow.

GROTOWSKY

a friend of mine lent me a book about grotowsky's work.

i had heard about him but i didn't really know who he was.

he makes a laboratory

it's very interesting

i barely go to the theater. but of all the performances i've seen in my life i've never seen anything like what he describes on the book

the book has 79 pages

is very small

A love Song?

I have no idea what this clip is about... seems like a love song??? Stumble upon this while i was trying to google the word 'exotic' on Youtube.

human

dear 2010:

thanks for arriving.

i love you.

everything seems much better

lisbon is a wonderful city

if it wasn't for my anxiety i would say that i'm 100%...

i'm only human

and that's why my eye is so hard.

i'm not going to leave this city

even thinking that this city doesn't care at all about me and my existence inside her.

that's how it works

and she is also human.

This is my horoscope reading for today:

"Your energy could be a little low today and you might find it difficult to be as productive as you'd like to be right now. If you find yourself feeling a little moody or insecure, this could trip you up a bit as well. Just realize that you'll probably be much better off if you can try to keep any unpleasant feelings to yourself for the time being."

I wonder who writes them... and how do they know??? As a matter of fact, my energy has been low for the whole month of December... maybe I will just drift into 2010 with this low energy, as if it matters which year it is....

meat

i don't want to eat meat anymore

i want to eat you

i don't want to eat meat, i want to eat your flesh and that will be all

i would like to be able of closing my eyes and keep the whole world in the other side of my eye lids

is it possible to stay away from the personal invasion that the world means?